JOURNAL: Starving...

... for email.

Yeah, this morning I'm email needing. This is because I feel like I sent out a lot of emails yesterday, and now I'm just tired of "Expecting". "Expecting" is a bad word. It's like me "Expecting" to win one of the "millions of dreams" that Disney's awarding at the parks (randomly) this year. It's naive. But as far as email replies goes... not so naive... maybe?

As I was writing the next paragraph, I noticed that I was falling back into the habit of negative self-talk, and I stopped myself. Honestly can do more harm than good sometimes. There's a time and place for everything, and right now it's not what I need. Jojo, Cindy, Karen, and Rick were big helps yesterday for different and similar reasons; so I'm not alone. My thoughts and perspectives just spiraled out-of-control, but now I'm back in control... gotta focus on me. Self-serving?... more like self-preservation -- that's something that my dad had tried to teach me before. And how true is that.

Today, I'm going to try working/staying at the office until 6pm, then head to the HS running meet at Holy Trinity... should be good.

That's it for now... just talking to myself.